How do I want to remember this time?
These are exceptional times. Stressful times. Overwhelming and emotional times.
The days are heavy. They're long, but short.
We're on day 27 of physical distancing. 27 days since I've seen anyone, in person, aside from my family, which is wild. 27 days ago we decided to hunker down and distance ourselves to keep my MIL and everyone else that is high risk, safe during these times. Everyday is a roller coaster of emotions; some days I feel great and on top of it all, but most days I feel overwhelmed, depressed, and anxious.
During those down times, I've been leaning on my (virtual) mentors. Listening to podcasts, reading books, and watching inspirational videos in attempt to pull from their strength so that I can show up in my strength for you.
I can't remember who said it or where, but they were talking about how they want to remember this time, how they want their kids to remember this time... and it got me thinking.
I've been thinking a lot about the challenging times I've been through in the past; my separation and years of battling with my ex. As I was reflecting on that time, I started feeling like I was a stronger person then, than I am now. I started comparing myself to the person that I was, and beating myself up for not being as strong as I was.
I quickly realized that those thoughts aren't serving me.
Comparing myself to who I used to be isn't helpful. I was a completely different person 10 years ago and the situation that I went through is nothing like what I'm going through right now.
There is no comparison.
Instead, I'm going to think about the woman I am today. I'm still just as fierce as I was 10 years ago, although I feel badly beaten right now, I am still strong. I went through hell and back many times; I can get through today.
I can pull from that strength.
I went through hell and back, and I'm still standing.
You've been through your own version of hell and come out the other side.
If you're reading this, you have a 100% success rate in getting through challenging times. You are strong enough to get through this.
I know in my heart that this is a turning point, not only for myself, but for the world. We'll remember this time for the rest of our lives.
What will you remember?